Thursday, September 4, 2014

Contentment... chasing after it daily!!

Today is one of those days where I'm REALLY struggling with being content. Not because I want a better home, cuter shoes or nicer clothes BUT - I want flexibility. I want to be able to go to see Tristan's events at school whenever I can, I want to not feel guilty for being at Chapel with him, being a room mom (which I am not) or chaperoning an event.

I know that I have it better than many, but still, today is one of those days I was SO sad and wanted to cry myself to work because I hate it. I hate the rushing and the stressing and the traffic and the everything. I know, I know... I am blessed, my bosses DO give me flexibility, etc... but it comes at a cost and... quite frankly, it's worth it but it still "hurts".

So in case you are ever wondering Tristan, I ALWAYS want to be there. I don't want to miss anything - EVER - but I will and I'll be sad and then I'll just be thankful when I make it to the next one.

I never, ever thought I'd have my own child and gosh, what I would have missed.

My prayer during my quiet time will remain - teach me to be content for I AM blessed!